I think I would have to die, or at least, cry. A lot. Seriously, this condition causes such horrible and ridiculous symptoms, that sometimes all that makes me able to survive it is being able to laugh at it.
Some days I really struggle with the functioning (or lack thereof) of my brain, that all-important command center that sits above my shoulders and is supposed to, in theory anyway, stay awake and aware of what I’m doing, and remember where I put things so that I can retrieve them as needed.
I was having a bad day with my command center one day, particularly with that part of my brain that locates objects. And specifically those objects that I put in an obvious location that I will be certain to remember.
I was making my weekly supply of homemade lemon zest “Luna” bars, and was looking for the jar of lemon zest that had recently arrived from Penzey’s. I kept looking in the same places, over and over, because I just knew it had to be there somewhere. After some time my son came out and helped me search. He looked in a few places I had not, and still didn’t see a jar of lemon zest.
Then I had a light bulb moment: “Silly narcoleptic,” I though, “Check the fridge!”
And with that though I knew it was in the refrigerator and why I had put it there. It said on the label that it maintains its freshness better in there.
Today I could not remember what year my husband and I were married, so I asked him. Mistake.
His response: “Hahahahaha, Susan, you just made my day! You made my year with that one! Hahahahahahahahaha.” (He did answer the question along with laughing.)
Usually I laugh right along with him, but today I was not in the mood. My response: “Oh, because the bad effects narcolepsy has on my brain are so hilarious?”
Memory issues are a huge issue for people with narcolepsy, and can be depressing to live with. Tonight I feel more like grieving than laughing. Maybe after a good night’s sleep I’ll be laughing again.
How about you? What about your chronic health condition causes you to laugh, cry, or want to die? Please post in the comments.